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bjarvisI'd love to write all kinds of wonderful & exciting things here. Really, I would. I just don't have any.
For the most part, my life has been entirely composed of either running on autopilot or paddling furiously to keep up with the flow around me since the beginning of November. I haven't been eating right, sleeping right or even thinking clearly for a while; my saving grace is that I'm in otherwise good health and (sorta) solid mind so I can let things go slack for a while without severe implications but it can't go on forever.
There are so many things I'd love to do right now but I'm blocked by lack of resources. I'd love to be at the LISA conference in Boston this week but my Dear Employer doesn't pay for training or conventions for non-executives and I can't afford to go on my own dime. We're short-handed at work right now so my work days have been long & laborious: I've spent quite a chunk of my weekend taking care of maintenance stuff so I'll have available capacity for the unanticipated through the rest of the week. I'd love to go out for dinner, drinks or such with friends but we're trying to be frugal with our money until we have extra income; hell, I'm even tracking mileage to cut back on gasoline expenses. A couple of local square dance callers have asked me to assemble yet another caller clinic; while I'd love to, this morning I started thinking about the funds we'd need for the coach's fees, the food & drink, the work required to prepare and such... I've suddenly lost all enthusiasm for the project.
The Christmas season is a boat anchor all of its own. I dread it every year but this year already feels like it is going to be the worst in a long time. Can I just be placed in a medically induced comatose until January, please?
More than anything, I'd like to escape to our trailer for 3-4 days to recharge but it's been winterized until March.
Currently, my plan is to work my way out of this the usual way: make a list of tasks which need to be done along with lists of dependencies, required resources & timelines and then attempt to convert my unproductive insomnia stretches into productive work hours. Yeah, it's not really much of a plan but it's all I have at the moment and it'll keep my head above water until this fog clears.
For the most part, my life has been entirely composed of either running on autopilot or paddling furiously to keep up with the flow around me since the beginning of November. I haven't been eating right, sleeping right or even thinking clearly for a while; my saving grace is that I'm in otherwise good health and (sorta) solid mind so I can let things go slack for a while without severe implications but it can't go on forever.
There are so many things I'd love to do right now but I'm blocked by lack of resources. I'd love to be at the LISA conference in Boston this week but my Dear Employer doesn't pay for training or conventions for non-executives and I can't afford to go on my own dime. We're short-handed at work right now so my work days have been long & laborious: I've spent quite a chunk of my weekend taking care of maintenance stuff so I'll have available capacity for the unanticipated through the rest of the week. I'd love to go out for dinner, drinks or such with friends but we're trying to be frugal with our money until we have extra income; hell, I'm even tracking mileage to cut back on gasoline expenses. A couple of local square dance callers have asked me to assemble yet another caller clinic; while I'd love to, this morning I started thinking about the funds we'd need for the coach's fees, the food & drink, the work required to prepare and such... I've suddenly lost all enthusiasm for the project.
The Christmas season is a boat anchor all of its own. I dread it every year but this year already feels like it is going to be the worst in a long time. Can I just be placed in a medically induced comatose until January, please?
More than anything, I'd like to escape to our trailer for 3-4 days to recharge but it's been winterized until March.
Currently, my plan is to work my way out of this the usual way: make a list of tasks which need to be done along with lists of dependencies, required resources & timelines and then attempt to convert my unproductive insomnia stretches into productive work hours. Yeah, it's not really much of a plan but it's all I have at the moment and it'll keep my head above water until this fog clears.
