Bleh.

[bjarvis]

I'm in a very odd state of mind today: unfocused, listless, unmotivated and forgetful. Even more so than usual. While not a crisis, it is a profoundly disturbing sensation.

Yesterday was far worse. Yesterday morning was complete emotional turmoil as I drove to work, wondering why I bother working for my employer, worrying about the future of my career and general fretting about a number of work-related items. By lunchtime, I persuaded myself that little issues were being blown out of proportion by a feeling of general exhaustion --I didn't sleep worth a damn the prior night-- and opted to simply ride it out.

I slept more than usual last night, getting to bed around 9 PM for the first time in months. Alas, a certain husband o' mine was snoring up a storm from 2 AM onwards but I resumed restful sleeping once my pillow & I moved to the smaller guestroom.

I don't think I'm coming down with some bug but I wouldn't discount the possibility of allergies kicking up. At the moment, I don't meet my own threshold for calling in sick to work so I'll see about having an early lunch and tough it out for the balance of the day. If I seem more clueless than normal today, try me again tomorrow for (hopefully) better results.

Comments

[moofedct.livejournal.com]

Have you tried earplugs for the snoring? I'm a pretty light sleeper and ear plugs have been the source of many an enjoyable night's rest.

As for the turmoil regarding your careeer, I've gone through a lot of that over the last 10 months. I've finally decided to do something about it.

[bjarvis.livejournal.com]

The career turmoil is a major pain in the ass right now but I want to hold to my original plan of action which I drafted in January. Under that plan, I'm waiting for a possible promotion statement in May... if it comes, I'll push much harder for a change in responsibilities but if it doesn't, I'll consider looking elsewhere.

[moofedct.livejournal.com]

Thanks for reminding me! I need to actually POST those plans in my journal! Stay tuned and stuff...