Indecision
Feb. 25th, 2012 03:03 pmI've been in an odd state of mind yesterday and today: being indecisive.
It feels a lot like procrastination but it's more than just deferring some action. Normally, I would make a conscious decision to do something, anything, rather than just avoid some activity. Normally, I wouldn't hesitate to make a commitment to a particular purchase, or taking on a new projects or selecting a book to read. Normally, I'd just look through my prioritized to do list for the next task to tackle.
I didn't quite realize how much I've been hedging lately until I was faced with the purchase commitment on eBay. Lately, I was thinking it would be pretty cool to hook either my tablet or my mobile phone to an external monitor & bluetooth keyboard. Purchase the right extras and I could use either device effectively as a regular laptop. Lord knows both devices are pretty powerful; my phone has more RAM than my netbook. The biggest snag is simply that I need a QWERTY keyboard to type effectively on either.
Both my phone & tablet have Bluetooth functionality so buying a Bluetooth keyboard would set me back only $20. An HDMI cable would only cost $2.50. So why am I so hesitant to hit the magic buy button?
My only idea on it at the moment is that my subconscious either thinks the purchase too frivolous or doesn't want to spend the funds, or both. I just wish my subconscious was speaking a bit more clearly 'cause I'd really like to know what I'm supposed to do. Limbo sucks. I'm supposed to be on mic for a square dance calling workshop tomorrow but I suspect I'm going to be somewhat less glowing than I normally try to be. Oh, well... they can't all be winners.
I'm sure this is just a passing mood and all will be well again in another day or two. In fact, we have a fairly loaded schedule for the next few weeks so I'm sure falling into normal routines again will help push me thorugh this annoyance. In the next few weeks, we have a number of square dance calling gigs, a C2 weekend with![[profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
dayleh, and, most happily of all, dewinterizing of our trailer at Roseland in West Virginia.
It feels a lot like procrastination but it's more than just deferring some action. Normally, I would make a conscious decision to do something, anything, rather than just avoid some activity. Normally, I wouldn't hesitate to make a commitment to a particular purchase, or taking on a new projects or selecting a book to read. Normally, I'd just look through my prioritized to do list for the next task to tackle.
I didn't quite realize how much I've been hedging lately until I was faced with the purchase commitment on eBay. Lately, I was thinking it would be pretty cool to hook either my tablet or my mobile phone to an external monitor & bluetooth keyboard. Purchase the right extras and I could use either device effectively as a regular laptop. Lord knows both devices are pretty powerful; my phone has more RAM than my netbook. The biggest snag is simply that I need a QWERTY keyboard to type effectively on either.
Both my phone & tablet have Bluetooth functionality so buying a Bluetooth keyboard would set me back only $20. An HDMI cable would only cost $2.50. So why am I so hesitant to hit the magic buy button?
My only idea on it at the moment is that my subconscious either thinks the purchase too frivolous or doesn't want to spend the funds, or both. I just wish my subconscious was speaking a bit more clearly 'cause I'd really like to know what I'm supposed to do. Limbo sucks. I'm supposed to be on mic for a square dance calling workshop tomorrow but I suspect I'm going to be somewhat less glowing than I normally try to be. Oh, well... they can't all be winners.
I'm sure this is just a passing mood and all will be well again in another day or two. In fact, we have a fairly loaded schedule for the next few weeks so I'm sure falling into normal routines again will help push me thorugh this annoyance. In the next few weeks, we have a number of square dance calling gigs, a C2 weekend with
dayleh, and, most happily of all, dewinterizing of our trailer at Roseland in West Virginia.
